taste of poison.

I am pretty much Proud of MY UTAH UTES we are now 6-0.. :)
Georgia is 3-4 :/
BYU IS 2-5 sooo that makes me soo happy ha suckers
ohhh and BYU is playing Georgia Tech in 2012 and well i dislike both teams so I hope georgia wins though.

I got to see my old roomie Julie and met her baby boy, it was so wierd seeing her as a mother but i could tell how happy she is :) also i have two old roomies of mine gettin married this coming month and couldnt be more than happier for both. I hope i can find that one.

So I started visitation schedule today umm that was the hardest thing ever, I dont think I can do this, I am going to need my friends to support me on this. I am not trying to be selfish but its already hard for me i dont get to see lily for the whole day and then have to give her up for a few hours twice a week blah give me strength.

I also had sushi with my good friend vanny I love her :)

So two deaths happen recently this past week, my cousins grandmother pass away and my good friends boyfriend :(
RiP Grandma Dorothy & RiP Colby Smith :(

ahh halloween is soon & I dk what I am going to be; but Lily is going to be a Lady Bug!!!


- love ya'll
jenn

I hope you regret your decison;

ahh typical its a Friday Night, I am staying in with my little one. :) It cant get better than that but I do have some exciting plans; tomorrow I am watching the Utah Game (LETS GOO UTESS) with Lily at my friends Dereks Place( I am glad I have friends who understand I have a child & invite not me but us to do things) & I am going to a concert Wiz Khalifa with my bestest girlfriends Vanessa& Kylee; pretty stoked. So it should be fun, downside I gotta work tmrw morning& I got community service hours too just 3 hrs left, but ill be finish with it. No more community hours, then starting classes BOOOOOO.

So Last weekend I went to boise, it was surely amazing. I had so much fun I met a lot of funny & nice people. I love the bar atmosphere out there. I got to be myself, But my favorite part was riding the mechanical bull TWICE, yes i did it TWICE. I was so excited, I scream pretty much the whole time but thats because it was so fun. :) I cant wait to go back to Boise.


So I have been on some dates and its going well because I have variety and I definitly know what I'm looking for. :) some day ill find that prince for me & lily bug.

Utah is 4-0'!!! hells yeah its about to be 5-0 tmrw

Georgia is 1-4 :( we are gettin killed this year we had an amazing season two years ago but wtf seriously, I STILL LOVE MY DAWGS I STILL REPRESENT THEM FROM UTAH :)

oh and guess what BYU IS 1-4 that makes me GIGGLE hahaha dumb cougars, I dont have anything against BYU I have alot of friends who goes there or allumi but when it comes down to FOOTBALL I'm a total UTE FAN. MY FUTURE HUBBY BETTER BE A UTE FAN.

well I'm out love ya'll who actually read this

Boys.Boys.Boys.

So I have decided I'm not much of a blogger my life is boring and plain. I do the same shit every day. Ha, one thing about my life I do love Lily Bug. I honestly dont think I would be an mature adult I am today, I think I probably would of been a drop out of college and alcoholic. True Story, crazy how something small like that can change ya for the better. I dont regret giving up my party years for her. She is too special to my heart for me ever having to reconsidering my choice. Shes too cute I love her to pieces. She can drive me nuts but I still love love her.

I also have decided all boys are dumb. just plain out dumb. stupid stupid boys.
they love to mind trick the F out of you...they say they want this, they want that FREAK, I mean Jesus doesnt even know what you want. anyways I have decided to set my standards a little bit higher though. I need a man, not a boy lol.

so UTAH GAME didnt go to the game but we went to a cook out, tailgated, then went to Andreas& Dereks so Paker and Lily could play, sooo freaking cute, It was a lot of fun, not to much weirdness but fun. Lily had a great day! I am still upset with him&his family though. Hopefully that passes I usually dont hold grudges but this will be hard to let go. But hey Utah is 4-0, YAY UTES. and BYU is 1-3 HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

School is going great I passed my tests with flying colors. I am almost done with Community Hours woot woot. You meet some interesting people at community service hours ha ha but Work is Blah I cant wait to switch back to afternoons, so I can come home and play with lily before bedtime.

I am going to Boise, Idaho TMRW woot woot, god I'm soo excited to get the F out of Utah, I will miss my wittle one to death but momma needs a break before I have a meltdown. I get to have some fun finally. & I am going with some awesome girls Kyndra & Justine. Lizzy was suppose to come but couldnt get work off, sooo  lame. Oh well it will be as just fun, plus I love meeting new people.


peace.

Utah FootBall; I adore ♥

So tomorrow I'm taking Lily to her first football game yet alone its UTAH UTES playing dumb SAN JOSE... ahhaha lets GOOO UTES so we are going with her father, which shall be interesting hence i havent seen the guy since seattle we left off on bad terms. I am annoyed still though with him & his family, oh and he informs me he has a girlfriend now. So of course I wanna see what she looks like, not jealous or anything just curious well the dumb bitch has me blocked. Like seriously Im no threat at all and if you wanna meet my child you need have the decency to meet me or atleast introduce yourself, so this girl has already started on bad terms with me. I just barely found out about her. Plus she wont last long bahaha, nick goes through girls like underwear. So hopefully ill never have to meet her.
     So any who I'm excited to take our little girl to the game. People ask why we are taking her, um its something to do, plus we wont be there forever because lily doesnt have the attention span to stay there forever like any other child. But I bought utah wear, so I am excited to dress her up & stuff. Plus hopefully this game will be a great start for nick and I to be friends once again, because I hate being at each others throats, we dont treat each other too great. so hopefully no one ruins this for me tmrw. I dont wanna be like other baby daddys/ baby mamas always fighting its not good for a child, so i am gonna say a prayer it goes okay tmrw.
     School is kicking my butt seriously its nothing but book work. blahhhh this weekend is paityns 2nd bday party on sunday I am excited to take lilykins once again ha i am bringin a date. Dating has been good for me so far hopefully it stays that way. i got major crushes bahah i am such a little school girl. So I been doing community serivce hours lately & wow you meet some crazies ha.. i am almost done with it eek cant wait.

I AM GOING TO BOISE NEXT FRI PRETTY STOAKED ABOUT IT. :) I'm going w/ kyndra & her friends lizzy&justine,so its a girls trip. ahh i cant wait to get away from utah for a bit. :)


I hope BYU LOOSES this week & GEORGIA WINS. :)

well later loves :) ill add more pictures later

just you & me kid.

      So this is my first time blogging since that one old website xango. I am going to try to not be too personal with my life on it as possible. So I am Jenn, I am from georgia, but now currently live in the grand state of mormons ha ha UTAH, but I am 22 in school, working and taking care of my daughter Lily. So I'm a single mama, its not easy but its worth it :) Lily is almost 2; I cant believe how the time flies. I love my daughter more than anything. Shes my world. Point Blank.


     Many ask if the father is in the picture, He wants to be.  Though i am keeping Nick away from her right now at the moment because I am having issues with him.. I do hope we can get it resolved. I know its not fair to her but I hate fighting with him, I feel as if I lost a good friend of mine. A lot of bs went down at the end of summer. I was disrespected & wont tolerate it. But its probabaly too personal to write on this. but Its hard on me, but prob harder on Lily. I hate being on bad terms with him. He lost a very close friend to him, RiP ERIC I wish I could of been there for him and to help him but I couldnt. its emotionally exhausting...So Lily doesnt deserve this mess at all . But i know things will be ok in the end.


      So lately I have notice some of my friends dont understand that I have priorites that I now have a kid. When i chose to keep her, I knew my life would change. I hate having to prove to ya'll my kid comes first thats just common sense she does. If you cant accept that, your not my friends. I cant go out every night people, plus i dont want to i have school in the morning and work. I am gone from 7 to 8 every day I am exhausted and just wanna hit the sack. Plus its nice to actually do stuff too with my friends and my kid together. Umm we could go to dinner, the park, event thats appropriate with a child. ya know? just venting there. Though I do hope to find a guy who can accept Lily and I, that will be the day, so the dating begins again bahahah ha but any who football season is here;

Utah Utes are now 3-0 this is amazing, i love my Utes!! haha and BYU is 1-2 bahahahaha, though Georgia needs to step up their game. they are 1-2 :( I love my dawgs no matter what though.


I am going to Boise, Idaho in october pretty excited to get away for a while, & just relax, chill with some girl friends & meet new people. :) girls just wanna have fun right?

but thats all for now ill update later i am waiting for lily to get rested so i can take her on a walk & to the park. then going on a bullet bike ride woot :)